allow me to be human.....

Hey all… just finished the last page of the ever-so-thick novel by Stephenie Meyer (did I get that right???) called Twilight….

(make the sound of the tape rewinding)

BACK UP A MINUTE….

Me???? Reading Twilight?????

Yes…. I was bored that time so I picked up the book…. DUH… I knoe this novel was considered VEEERRRRY old among novel readers…. So why did I chose to waste my life and read it??? Well, I thought the movie sucked so much (wasted Rp. 20,ooo) this could probably save whatever is left of Steph’s dignity…. It took me two months to finish it I think… well… I am a busy man… (busy sleeping.. wohoooo…..)

YES, Miss Stephanie is an awesome writer in her own unique genre…. From start to finish her writing proves to be a pleasant reading experience. Referring to Bella as I really puts me in her shoes (sorry.. not an arts student… I dunno literature jargon… u can teach me tho…) I guess u all know the story by now ryte??? So no need fer summary okay??? She fell fer the vampire and a lot of very impossible things happen which are beautifully put into words….

IMPOSSIBLE

Yes… it is impossible…. Sorry Miss Meyer…. I have to voice this out…. Because of this book… every girl in the world wishes she has a boyfriend like Edward Cullen…. Now each and every single male is compared to Edward…. Kesian juga ya para laki-laki… Careful….. He does not exist…. I sed it many2 times… without flaw we are not human…. Don’t u understand the reason Stephanie made Edward a vampire???? Because no such human exists….u have to be immortal…. The hidden message I got from this book: Edward is about three-hundred years old when he finds love and really learns to care for Bella.

ONE: love takes time… I guess…

TWO: through mistakes we learn… no matter how bad the mistake is….

THREE: be successful (that Dr. Carlisle dude has so many cars in his garage... haha )

and finally

FOUR: REALITY BITES….. (no pun intended…)

i need something better to do....

FAILURE

What goes thru ur mind when I say this word? A majority I guess refer to exams… Can’t argue there. But 2 years spent here (2 years… my my how we can show our true colors in such a short period of time) I have seen and done multiple types of failure… TAKE NOTE: I imply myself here as well so dun say I’m pointing my finger at you….

1. failing to shut up

put 2 humans together with nothing to do and I can assure u…. they wont sit and talk about themselves, they will talk about other people. As bitter as it may sound I think the “kalau dah melayu tu melayu la jugak” term people tell me is really starting to show…. Its life… I cant put words anymore to describe this. The tongue is the softest muscle yet the sharpest weapon….

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2. failing to see

the tiniest speck of fault in another is most noticeable but what of your own?

A: “kau tengok buruk gile perangai dia.. manusia jenis apa tah dia tu”

B: “er... aku tgk kekadang ko pon sama jugak”

A: “tp aku camtu-camtu pon, baik lagi aku... tak cam dia...bla bla bla”

Ouh, this conversation is usually followed by point number 1....

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3. failing to keep promises

when u say u will do it, do it… simple as it is… God forbid if a plague hit u the night before its okey… otherwise please improve on point number 1…. SHUT UP… shitty it is when u promise to hang out with me tomorrow, just hours beforehand u say u dun feel like going…. Hey, U PROMISED … then again, wouldn’t it be nice if the plague really hit you… here’s another one…

“okay dear, when u get there promise me u’ll study hard, I sold grandpa’s land to get u to this university”

“okay mom/dad… I promise……”

Much much later….

“class??? Nah, whatever for? I’ll just sleep there anyway, better do it at home”

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4. failing to just keep it going

“uuuuu… I missed you so much…. Promise me you’ll gimmie a call whenever”… well, I tried… but in time u find it boring don’t u… u just said that for the sake of saying it… so one day, u decided to stop while I keep on trying…oh yes… you nailed it this time. you failed to shut up and keep ur promise…

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5. failing to asses the situation

what situation??? Anything really…. Put it backwards or forewords it will somehow follow the sequence below….

done one time: “hahaha… daymn….”

Done twice: “ehehe…. Emmm….”

Done three times: “oke man… stop it”

Done yet again and again: “FUCK IT MAN.. YOU’RE SUCH A DICK”

Ouh… this one really puts the END in friENDship….

As u can see… it revolves around here….

Well, whether we like it or not, individuals like this exists… it’s a harsh world we live in… when i say this dun go crying and start blaming yourself or getting back at me... instead realize how important it is to have an open mind and be ready to change yourself for the better….

Flaws are what makes us human, what makes us more than human is to learn from it…..

of one....

It all starts with the eyes....

She’s gotta have those kind of eyes that can look right through the bullshit

To the good inside

20% angel

80% devil

Down to earth

Ain’t afraid to get a little engine grease under her fingernails....

~

the light~

________ under the moonlight (fill in the blank....)
taken at Pakuwon trade centre, Surabaya

taking pictures like this will sure bring back a lotta memories when i get older (then again, i am 23... can be considered as old... with a young spirit)

Happy Birthday Adam....

on another note:

while i was out with at Pakuwon i received a phone call. it was Along.

Along: Arid, u forgot eh....

Me: Err... What???

Along: U didnt wish mama...

In my head: daym... not again

I guess staying all the way here made me forget all the wishes that needed to be wished which i take for granted due to other ppl reminding me. now being here alone, things have got to change... forgive me..

and Mom:

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY


yes, all the words in the world can never describe what a big impact u made in us 4F's lives.

Allah's miracles work in many ways, this is and by far the best...

i am deeply thankful~

cooling off...

shot from my camera phone during the PBL discussion... not much excitement going on here....


LETS CONTINUE SHALL WE

Help… Endodontics is really getting on the last few nerves I had…

As if performing one procedure wasn’t enough…I had to do another method… we had to perform the “step-back” method apart from the initial “what-i-think-was-already-hard” conventional methods… senior dentists, help me on this one… I would luv to be good at this but things are proving to be tough… pray with me people on this one…

So work aside, I went for a walk to Tunjungan Plaza @ TP (pronounced in Indonesia as Tay Pay…) I guess becoming friends with these two made me try all sorts of new foods… we stepped into j.Co coffee and donuts and this happened…

L: Me thinking deeply about how to endure endodontics, R: Adnin busy on the phone as always, Below: Aizzi stressing about her PBL exam tomorrow. i dub this pic "TONGKAT DAGU"

well, we went to J.Co fer this:

its called J.Cool yogurt ice cream... yogurt flavoured ice cream with 3 choice of toppings. i chose strawberry, kiwi and peach.... yummy....

i automatically had to "layan".... it was after all a "healthy indulgence"....

~can we possibly escape eating when stress???~

On another note, to all Malaysians, did you know that J.Co is originally from Indonesia??? if u made that clear, please don't come up to me asking questions like "Eh, Kat indon pon ada J.Co ke???" i will slap you endlessly <-- blame endodontics on this one... heheh

this entry is dedicated to Miss Asmaa Nafeesa... Missing the long chats over dessert.... ~

and then monday came .... again....

Its May already…

Am I the only one who realizes this??? 4 months have passed since 2009 began…

It’s the middle of my semesters… mid sems were a drag… the most memorable moment on the exam week was this:

Radiology Exam starts Monday 20^th april, 10.30am…

9.30am: okay…. Enough sleep… get up n go get ready…

10.00am: reach campus grounds… waiting in the lecture hall fer the exam to begin..

10.35am: it should have started by now…whats going on???

10.40am: sum bloke from administration came into the lecture hall…

“KAMU GAK DIKASI TAU YA… UJIANNYA GAK ADA… LANSUNG U.A.S”

(weren’t u informed earlier? There are no exams for this subject. U will only have this as ur finals… )

10.41am-8.00pm: !@#@!@#$%$#%^%%^&^&**&^&(*&^$#$%^&*&^%$#$%

U don’t know how pissed we all were… the thing is on Tuesday is a KILLER paper. Oral biology. We could have used more of our weekends to focus on it…. CURSES… memorable… but CURSES!!!!

2 weeks of misery went by… on top of the misery, our lab sessions still had to be done…. We are now learning the painful process of root canal… I was starting to hate it… I cant explain to you all the details coz… well not all of u use the internet to “learn” ryte… I mean, facebooks, YMs and Blogging beats learning anytime… (Prove me wrong….) but all in all we had to remove the dead stuff in ur teeth, clean it out n fill it in with whatever it is to cover the hole we made… there… that’s all u need to knoe… wanna feel smarter??? Go google it n tell me what u find okey…

Bottom line: its tiring…

I told my mum I was doing this and she said:

“yeah, I never did like it either… ”

So how do I get by??? By remembering wat that turtle in the movie kung fu panda sed: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, that is why its called the present…. Whooohooo… thank you Master SheeFoo…

By the way… I just found this nice song… Its by a band called Stone Sour… sorry if I may seem a lil bit left behind on underground band issues but I think their song is cool… check out the lyrics on this one… its called Through glass….

I'm looking at you through the glass,

don't know how much time has passed 

Oh God it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that 

Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...

How do you feel? That is the question...

But I forget you don't expect an easy answer 

When something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like 

Paper dolls and little notes, you can't expect a bit of hope

So while you're outside looking in, describing what you see 

Remember what you're staring at is me 

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass, 

don't know how much time has passed 

All I know is that it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that  

Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...

How much is real? So much to question 

An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything 

We thought came from the heart - but never did right from the start 

Just listen to the noises - null and void instead of voices

Before you tell yourself It's just a different scene 

Remember it's just different from what you've seen 

I'm looking at you through the glass, 

don't know how much time has passed 

And all I know is that it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that  

Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass, 

don't know how much time has passed 

And all I know is that it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that  

Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...

And it's the stars, the stars that shine through you 

And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you 

I'm looking at you through the glass,

don't know how much time has passed 

Oh God it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that 

Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass, 

don't know how much time has passed 

All I know is that it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that  

Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head...

And it's the stars, the stars that shine through you 

And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you

the lyrics... man... where does the writer get all this...