KAWAN KE?

What the hell is wrong with me? 

Its been three months into this clinical thingy... I thought I might enjoy this... but I find myself not as hyped as the first day it started... 


"find help from your friends" they say....hmm.... this is kinda hard... I guess here its proving to become a task... its different from my earlier days... I had friends I can work with.. ones that got my back when I have theirs...

"c'mon Farid, you need to finish this... Lemme help you"

"I have a problem, help me out please, what you dont understand I will teach later"

"stop messing around, this is serious. remember your targets"

"help me out here, I need patients, perhaps you can find some for yourself as well"

those constant reminders from day to day is a bit tad annoying yeas but I guess that is what I need... These small drives are what gets me working day to day during my years. I fail to see that nowadays. Its a matter of first come first serve.

I guess daddy taught me to be a give and take sort of person but here I am stuck in a "take all" environment.... 

dear Allah... help me... Aamin...

LIFE

LIFE is like a music video at times...  I think... When a new music video comes out, you get all excited... wanting to see over and over again. but as time flies and you see the same thing over and over again, you start to get bored... you then sometimes forget that first feeling you had watching it for the first time. Then all it needs sometime in the future is a remake, a revamp... And then you are reminded again... 

my life is kind of that music video on repeat... each monday having to wake up and work... going home in the evenings, sleep, night time falls and in the morning it repeats itself again. Am I complaining? probably. but then again I just feel like I need a remix... A revamp you may call it... but hey... life goes on... I am thankful I get to breath and live another day...

on the other hand  a dear friend of mine got his revamp.... its not on the good side I must say... but Allah has a plan for everybody I guess...

He was diagnosed with cancer not a while back... It was a wake up call for me... Cancer knows no age limit... He is a medical student and is expected to graduate shortly but due to chemo, he has to return home... imagine that... you grow up feeling fine than one day, planning for your future to become an excellent doctor and then.... 

He is currently on chemo back in Malaysia... everytime I think of him I pray Allah will lift his cancer away.. Insya-Allah.. I must make an effort to see him... because he taught me all kinds of things during our time together at KTT.  

For those who think life is boring, think again... what would happen if your time in this world is timed....

Fauzi, may Allah cure your sickness.. Insya-Allah. Aamin ya rabbalalamin...

KELIIINIK!

Alright then, its been ages since I wrote anything here.. Quite sometime after Hari Raya Aidil Fitri I started my clinical years.

YEAS PEOPLE!!!! I MADE IT INTO THE CLINICAL YEARS!!

its tiring i guess... well... I guess...

So before I rant on I should really explain to you what clinicals are all about... we are the pioneer batch for what the Faculty calls it "inter-grated clinic"... the whole floor of the clinic is opened up and we are free to use the clinic as our own practice with supervision from the doctors and during this period of time we are to fulfill all our requirements... so in short if i have a single patient with multiple requirements, I can handle the patient from start to finish independently. this clinic excludes Oral Surgery, Radiology, pediatric dentistry, and Public Dental Health education.

so now that you are up to speed.. it looks all shimmy and cool huh? you get to play dentist!

but then again... the troubles the faculty fail to see are oh so many...

1. LACK OF CUBICLES
the faculty takes a total of more less 160 students per intake and about 130 manage to get into this inter-grated clinic as scheduled. the thing is... the work space (read: cubicles) provided do not add up to even a mere 80. and we have to technically fight for a cubicle every morning... please take note that not every cubicle is in good working condition... almost every unit is faulty...

2. DOCTORS ARE SUPPOSED TO TEACH THE STUDENTS RIGHT?
so it goes that when we enter the clinical phase that we are given all the knowledge beforehand and we just practice the theory we learned. but take not, we still need to be guided non-the-less... this is not what happens... instead, when the we fail to answer a theoretical question, they send us off and tell us to look for the answer.. now I do not mind if this is a method of teaching but this is done AS THE PATIENT IS WAITING TO BE TREATED. we are supposed to get approval from the doctors before we work. having to find the answer we let the patient wait... where are the ethics? it would be so much better if we are called after the patient is treated and discuss the theory...

3. ITS ALL ABOUT REQUIREMENTS
in the heat of things, we are so caught up in getting the signatures for the requirements that in the end its all about racing to get things done... we read the manual given, finish the job and thats it. its not about the passion to do it properly anymore. we dont learn as much to become a dentist.. its all about finishing on time... thats not learning... thats just labor...

4. NO PATIENTS, NO WORK.
thats the whole deal. some of us pack up and go home... cool eh?



well thats it for now... I guess some good will come out of this... this university is said to be world class... so they must know what they are doing ryte? am i ryte?